Friday, December 31, 2010

Goodbye Joy

It is with great sadness that I write this blog post today. At about 2pm this afternoon, Joy was put to sleep after a long and full life.

Joy was born on January 9, 1996; she would have been 15 years old in a few days. We got her when she was only a few weeks old. She was healthy all her life until last summer. We waited a far as we could, but this week she got worse and I knew it was time to let go. It was really not an easy decision. I was away this week at my parents and came back last night to find her worse than ever. I call the vet this morning and by 2pm, she was gone.

I have been second guessing my decision for all day. Should I have paid the Vet to try to fix her, knowing that this could have added a few months or years to her life? Should I just have waited a few more days and see if she would have got better? Am I a monster for ending her life and not letting die of natural causes? What could I have done to make things better for her?

I miss her already. I miss her a lot! She was by far the best dog I have ever had. My heart is aching and I just can't stop crying. Today I lost my girl! Goodbye Joy! I love you!

11 comments:

Scrappin Chris said...

G...my heart goes out to you. I know it is one of the hardest decisions in the world to make. Losing a beloved pet is like losing a family member. Please know, you did do the right thing. Joy is no longer suffering nor hurting. You will see her again some day. Joy will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge.

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author Unknown

Charlene said...

My heart aches for you at this time G. It is one of the hardest things that you have to do...decide when to stop letting a loved one suffer. Please do not think that what you did was the wrong decision...you made the decission based on your love for Joy and what was best for her. You could have tried to keep her around for longer, but who would you have been doing it for...you or her? She is in a wonderful place now where there is no pain, no illness, and the love of our Lord for I truly believe that God takes all of our beloved family members to be with him...whether they have fur or not. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family that you will come to realize that this was the best decision that you could make....for Joy. As someone once said somewhere else...take both your arms, spread them wide and then wrap them around yourself...that is me giving you a big hug...hold onto it as long as you need to. And remember...we are all here for you if and when you need us.

dale said...

Oh,G I am so sorry. I can only imagine how sad you are. How touching to remember Joy in such a sweet way on your blog. You have me crying too. Wish I could Give you a great big hug. Praying for God to ease the pain of your loss. No one knows what a special place in our hearts our pets have unless they love a pet of their own. LUG!!!

Sara I. said...

Oh G... I'm so very sorry about your dear, sweet baby. I know in my heart that you did the right thing, and over time, you will too. There is nothing I can say that will help other than you are in my heart and I'm praying that yours will be healed over time.

PresentStorm said...

G honey I am sooooo sorry to hear this. You did the right thing though. You helped ease her suffering and what you did was very self less... You did it out of love for her. I too believe you will see her again and that she is running free on the streets of gold. Love ya girl... sending you big hugs.

Trina said...

Oh G, I know how you feel. I had an absolutely sweet dog from sixth grade to about three years ago. I had to put her down late one night after she'd had something like a stroke. I know it was best for her, but I still tear up when we talk about her because she truly was a member of the family... Your baby had a long run, and I'm sure she knew she was loved. My heart goes out to you... HUGS!!

Gina L said...

Oh, sweetie, as someone who has been there, please know that you made the most humane, caring decision for your baby girl. She was suffering and you gave her peace in a respectful, dignified way. I am so sorry for your loss. I know your heart aches and nothing can make that better. Love you!

Brenda said...

Oh G, I am so sorry that you have lost Joy. I know you waited as long as you could. I am so sorry for your loss. Lots of hugs girl, luv you, Bren

THERESA said...

Crying with you my friend, i know, i lost two dogs in the last 3 months and the one had to be put done due to cancer, it will hurt like anything, but the ointment for that , is in knowing Joy has no pain anymore and she knew you did it out of love for her !!
You are in my heart and prayers and when you see her again, no more pain.......................:))
Really LUG..

Ruby Taylor said...

Oh G, You have my heart with you. I had to face the same decision this past Sept. and my Missy was just one day shy of her 8th birthday. She was still so young. I could have let them operate, put her through chemo, etc, just to keep her with me. But I was assured she would be in pain and it would definitely grow again because they couldn't get it all. I had to let her go for her sake. I wanted to keep her alive for my sake. I cried for a month before it got any easier.
They aren't just our fur babies...they are our family!! Know that she is no longer old and frail and sickly. She is running by beautiful ponds, playing in vibrantly green grass and has sooo many friends. I know my loving, friendly Missy met your Joy at the gates with a wagging tail and a big sloppy kiss. She's not "resting in peace"....she's romping full of life but with a beautiful set of wings. And she is watching you and visiting you!!!
My love and hugs to you, my friend!

Kim Kelley said...

There are so many words that one could say...and they never seem to be enough, but I am sorry. For one whose own dogs are so much a part of their family I feel for you. The memories of our loved ones..be it people or paets live in our minds and grow in our hearts. Lots of hugs, love and prayers sending your way!

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